Chapter 5; lose the ego.

The whole idea of identity crisis is to determine who we really are. By admitting my navigation through various levels of false ideas and bravado, I can learn from my mistakes, otherwise what good were they to make.
Freshly out of my Alamo house in spring of 06’ and into another, I found that carnal love again. Through trial and tribulations, comes the next day of self forgiveness, and mercy to do right. The cleansing fire and purge purification. The journey of the wounded healer or the faith of the blind seer. To change ones life from being stuck in the same old patterns. A perceptual shift occurs, a transmutation from a base metal into gold. One might call it regret which empowers one to make life changes. The desire to change.
The summer love was the first lesson in losing the ego, through the power of stillness which prevailed with the reclamation of my life and my actions. Disturbance was found by not giving into the problems of others, but merely being the calm in the storm, people can’t stand it, and there egos want reaction. Lose the ego. Don’t attach your self to the mind. A random trip to Sedona, an introduction into sustainable/simple living, then Burning Man 2006 ‘hope or fear for the future’. I left hoping to find some answers from some people, fearing that knowledge is passed along, but I guess I never found the right people. I did however learn a lot about the nature of our future ways as a community and the advent of an experimental community. I lost my identity numerous times and found that there is hope in each other. Only by losing the ego can we hope do uncover the disassociation from the mind made world of living and into the center of the heart, where real love can flourish.

P.S. There are many practices and modalities to experience the shrinking and submersion of ones ego, far too many to go into detail here. But on the exclusivity of losing my own ego, I have been humbled many times and am deeply thankful to be alive and share life with one another and create dynamical growing experiences from a source that I have found that exists beyond the man made ego, and into the true nature of our very being, the connection to our spirit.
Connect to the moment that you inhabit right now, it is all that ever truly exists.
Connect to the breath moving in and out of your body.
Connect to the witnessing presence inside your mind, observing your thoughts but not judging them. Connect to the vision that you are everything. Lose the ego.